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Saturday, 8 March, 2003...........................................................

"Get along now, Pilgrim"

Here's some spots on Earth, other than your front porch, where you can be kissed by the Divine: Glastonbury Tor, Angkor Wat, the Valley of the Kings and Luxor, and the
Dome of the Rock. Anywhere else on this site is gold in the pilgrim's pocket.

Where I have made intentional journeys to include Devil's Tower, Wyoming, the coast, mountains, hotsprings, forests, and lakes of the Olympic Peninsula, mystical magical Mount Shasta, California. I trekked across Eastern Europe in '99, with a focus to get to the Weiliczka Salt Mines ( a UNESCO World Heritage Site ) in Poland and the Minaret of Eger, Hungary, one of the northern most Islamic shrines in Europe. Last year Joshua and I galavented all about the Southwest US, and my pilgrim points were Catherdral Rock in Sedona, AZ and Canyon de Chelly, which knocked much more than my socks off.

Up next of course is Haiti, less than one month away now, and I'm feeling that Bassin Bleu, a series of grottoes, waterfalls and blue water lakes, a site sacred in Vodoun, might just be an epicenter of something truly amazing.

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Krugman: Let Them Hate as Long as They Fear, it may as well be the new motto of American foreign policy.

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Alan Dershowitz And The Ticking Time-Bomb the insanity of legalizing torture. I can't believe people even stop to consider this as an option. Is this really America I'm living in? By kurt nimmo

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A Water-Skiing Squirrel, something Darwin never saw coming.

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"I put a Spell on you."

I received my author's proof in the mail today and was so excited... until I looked at the spine. My publishers, which so far have been fantastic, managed to misspell the title of my book, something that any spellcheck would have coughed up. Immaterial became "Immatrial." That's just stupid. Secondly, on the back cover, Divinity became "Divinty." Who checks this stuff, Mrs. Oogle's third grade reading class?

My enthusiasm isn't diminished, just on pause until they work this out.

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Friday, 7 March, 2003...........................................................

Bush's Wake-Up Call Was a Snooze Alarm

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"Squared Routes"

I spent my day as worker-robot in a glazed daze though the time maze. I slept about 2 hours last night all for the grand and worthy cause of commeradery and universally relativistic truthseeking with Joshua. I watched the events of the day pass like electrons through a TV tube, 2D whisps of desaturated color challenged by the vertical hold. Definately a strange channel. I'm going to sleep for a while, then at midnight join the crew for eggs and beer, a payday tradition.

I'm thinking, begrudgingly yet bemusedly, that it's time to break out the spiffies and check out a club or two over the next few weeks. Even though my orientation is firm, most gay clubs bore or scare me. I feel more at home in our Irish style pub, putting down a pint and watching a game of darts, or shooting pool in a cloudy haze of classic rock. But spring's scent is on the breeze, musky with invitation and sweet with chance. Maybe I'll find someone as disaffected as me, holding up a wall and taking in from a safe distance the bawdy spectacle of muscle shirts and denim so tight it's damn near an X-Ray, wishing he were up a tree or playing a flugelhorn while bouncing on a pogo stick. Projection? Whimsy and wishes? Yes, they are but I've got to start somewhere, even if the journey is unpredictable and the routes are squared.

Meanwhile, I can't keep my eyes open any more, so this is where I'll end it.

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Ever heard of Melchizedek?

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When I need a reminder on how to behave, I simply visit The Gentleman's Page. the themorningnews.org

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Adventures of Dick and Jane on the always high-brow somethingawful.com

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America admits suspects died in interrogations. Oops, sorry!

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Thursday, 6 March, 2003...........................................................

"The Talking Shrub"

Bush speaks...

Bush Zen: "If we act we will act..."

Bush whacked: "When it comes to security we don't need anybody's permission."

Bush game: "wilful charade"

Bush 420: "We must smoke these al Qaeda types.."

Bush mirror: "I believe that when we see totalitarianism, that we must deal with it."

Bush bluff: "It's time for people to show their cards"

Bush gaffe: "...and we will respect innocent life in Iraq."

Bush cuss: "I swore to protect and defend the constitution."

Bush joke: "I hope we don't have to go to war..."

Bush irony: "I pray for peace."

Bush gone? "...if we go to war there will be a regime change."

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"Reclining Profits"

It's a grey day outside, and despite the grey news of a possible job loss, I'm above the clouds where it's clear. Anyway, it's one of my seemingly endless string of part-time jobs where I have a particular special needs client spend a couple of nights a week at the house. He charms my roommates while occasionally tweaking my patience, but all in all it's easy work.

His domestic status is changing and I had thought that I could stay on providing respite, but the chicken-faced wenchling that'll be keeping him apparently wants to farm out my job to someone in her coop. I'm not really that bitter but she has never liked me much in the first place, which is fine. What isn't fine is that this change will hurt the client because I'm also his job coach and friend, and I've poured untolled hours of building trust and teaching responsibility into him. He functions on a five year level and has so much potential for growth if given consistency and opportunity.

But somehow I know that, despite the impending financial setback and having less chances to help the client out, something else will open up and things won't be so bad. I'm doing better at managing my finances, meager though they may be, and even with car payments soon to be dripping from my fiscal veins, some minor lifestyle adjustments will keep me from disasterous scenarios.

It would be nicer all around if we didn't have to deal with money at all. I wish it were a fiction. Not that I think it can't be useful, but it's my primary stressor, and the Earth's primary stressor. Most people onboard this big blue spaceship live with much less than we in America, and their poverty and hunger is for the sake of our top of the line automobiles and quarter pound cheeseburgers. It's a top heavy world and it can't teeter like this forever.

I don't mind working, it's just having those little symbols, those "bio-survival tickets" in trade for my energy. So, rather than running of to an organic commune or Marxist utopia, I think I'll just try to reinvent what money means to me and what kind of money to avoid or attract. How can I make it do genuinely good things for me, like keeping me healthy, and at the same time make it steady the wobble of global economic inequity? Ultimately, I suppose, the stuff doesn't really matter. You can't buy a sunrise or a birdsong, and the Beatles were right on about what else it fails to procure. What matters is how much we desire it, and what we do with that desire when we get it... or what we do when we don't. When money talks, maybe people should listen to something else.

The grey day has gone black now, and that's something I really can profit from.

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About the "nipr.mil" domain: "You know all you need to know"

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"...what could have been the very first batteries and how these important archaeological and technological artefacts are now at risk from the impending war in Iraq."

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Same-sex marriage advocates in the United States are watching Massachusetts, where the state's highest court could rule that barring gay couples from marrying is unconstitutional.

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Just signed this; Emergency Petition to the U.N.

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Israel turns blind eye to death threat on Palestinian gays

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Asheville students make stand for peace! Way to go guys! This reminds me of a walk-out I led in my junior year back in Newark, Delaware in '91, when Bush the Elder launched the Iraq attack on MLKjr day. We had close to 500 students on the streets, beautiful memory. Maybe I'll look for that speech I made and post it later.

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What are the differences between a vocabulary, a taxonomy, a thesaurus, an ontology, and a meta-model? Linguistics a-go-go!

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Ebert on Prayer and the Pledge. Excellent commentary.

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Lynne Cheney Parody Censored by Big Dick. Arivederci, First Amendment, don't forget to write!

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Wednesday, 5 March, 2003...........................................................

"Too Mellow for a Title"

I'm so glad that I decided to get out of the house... I did about six miles in an hour and twenty, which isn't too shabby for an out of shape flake like me. What's more, the lake was beautiful and everyone I passed was smiling. Even the dogs. It did rain a little, but at the speed I was walking / jogging I seemed to not collect that much water. I'm still energized, and maybe I can make a pact with myself to do this every couple of days.

I suppose I should continue this trend of experiencing life elsewhere than in front of the minotaur / monitor. A silly movie and a Dead Guy Ale sound nice. Now All I have to do is to grab the crow bar and pry away...

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"...beautiful but rarely seen phenomenon: anticrepuscular rays." Razzle dazzle sky stuff.

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I'm vexed; temperature-wise it's awesome outside, but the sky is a dingy, threatening grey. I'd like to jog or just walk around in aimless circles for a while but after the beating from the bug I'd rather not reignite the nasties. The virtual coin toss tells me to go, my heart says to go, but my body is deadset against it. Of course, I am a singular organism and it is my conscious tendency to split my being into parts... body vs. mind vs. spirit. With that kind of thinking it's hard to gain consensus.

What do I have go gain from lying in bed? What do I have to gain from leaving this house and experiencing the spontanaity of whatever the world is meant to be today?

OK, see y'all later, I'm heading out.

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"We shouldn't be tinkering with life until we understand the purpose, and that's a long way off in this society. Nothing personal, but without a spiritual conception of nature, biotechnology is just one more iteration of foolishness."

~Tony Vigorito in "Just a Couple of Days."

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John le Carre:The United States of America Has Gone Mad

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Easter Grenades! Check out the latest warmongering, in the form of Easter baskets complete with plastic soldiers and death-implements! It's all about rebirth, y'all! via mefi

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Lawyer Arrested for Wearing a 'Peace' T-Shirt. Another great reason to flee the country now.

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Tuesday, 4 March, 2003...........................................................

"Holy Ho-down"

Happy Muharram to the Muslim world. Wednesday marks the first day of the new Islamic year and for the next month a period of fasting. The Lenten season begins tomorrow as well with Ash Wednesday, wherein Christians receive on the forhead a cross of palm frond ashes as a show of devotion and usually begin a fasting / renunciation period as well.

We wackos and wackettes at Jubilee!, a community centered in Creation Spirituality, use ashes from the sweetgrass burned to call the four directions, which is a sacred way of naming aspects of God in many traditions, including First Nation and Wicca.

Whether you celebrate sunrises or sunsets, apples or oranges, dreams or realities, know that even though Wednesday is just another day, cliche as it may be, there won't ever be another one like it... it includes you, and that's pretty groovy. No matter your faith, your truth or lack thereof, when tomorrow's sun rises, it's as good an excuse as any to get on the good foot and get going.

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Howard Zinn on the impending war. And a news icon.

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"Granted Immunity"

It may be too early, but I'll declare anyway that the crud is vanquished and all that's left is a biological cleanup operation of sorts. I have my wits about me again, even though I'm not entirely on the up and up in the energy department. Meanwhile dearest Robin has been temporarily felled with the ick, and I'm afraid that it was an unwanted souvenir of her last visit. Chin up, kiddo, I'll be over soon with meddies.

Today I went to the Health Dept. and got all the immunological goodies I need for Haiti; Hep A, Tetanus, Typhoid and Malaria. I really don't like the idea of this approach to medicine, but I'd rather go with some marginal protection then none at all. In a way this seals it for me; I'm commiting to this trip with my body, strengthening it in a way I can't see for a shoreline not that distant on the horizon. This bundle of bones and blood is such a sensitive, fine system under our awkward expressions, beer bellies and stumbling gaits. It's such a vulnerable thing to do, to pierce it with a needle, and allow a strange liquid to teach the immune system how to kung-fu. For me, a bozo who lived most of his adult life with a now extinct needle phobia, today was no small step at all. And it was so easy. As every big step to the inevitable next thing could be, again, again and ∞


Happy March Forth [sic], all you partygoers and celebrants of ancient rites.

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Nobel Laureate Warns of Genetic Discrimination

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Monday, 3 March, 2003...........................................................

Northwoods: A Plan for Terror to Justify War via american samizdat

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"March Forth!"

Tommorow of course is Mardi Gras / Shrove Tuesday / Fasching / Carnivale. What's better, it's on one of my favorite days of the year. March 4th. Make that march forth! March forth into spring, rebirth and oodles of sunshine. March forth into a day resplendant in possibility! March forth ( hopefully for me ) into a day when beads and bozos outweigh coughing and crabbiness!

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"Crud Day 2"

This is becoming like a war journal. I'm certainly entrenched, in a messy nasty foxhole surrounded by unpleasant things. Now it's a crushing headache and fatigue. I have no energy and the attention span of a flea on espresso. I'm having lots of weird hypnagogic images, hinging on a dreamstate yet not quite getting there. Sleeping is shallow and ironically takes great effort.

I'd like to emulate CS Lewis ( or was it Lewis Carroll? ) who actively participated in a sudden and painful illness as one who simply studied the effects of the sickness on the body and mind. He, whichever one it was, was detached from it mentally, but experiencing it very presently on a physical level, and whote about it in a scholarly, scientific way. But right now that's just to altruisitic and high-horsed, and here in the trenches it's a pale shade of hell. Cough. Wish I knew who that damn author was.

Tonight was the first rehearsal for the play "Dearly Departed," which we'll be staging in late April. My part is great, the Rev. BH Hooker. I'll have fun with his character, and since I'll be missing some rehearsal time while in Haiti, it's the perfect part. I hope by then I wont be dribbling slobber and ectoplasm everywhere I go.

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"Department of Homebody Security"

Up until this point, my body has attempting to negotiate with the hostile forces that are rampaging through it's veins and muscles. My body has used diplomacy, herbs, homeopathy, vitamins and positive visualization as a means of reconciling with this dangerous invasion. It is now clear that these tactics will not work. Therefore I have created the Department of Homebody Security. Our goal is to vanquish this malicious hoarde using whatever means are availible... NyQuil, TheraFlu, or even the previously unused and personally outlawed antibiotics. I am in the process of going through each and every cell in my body and creating a body-wide data base of possible evil-doers. Those cells will then be captured and tried in secret. Then I will dispose of them, heh-heh. No longer will a flu, bellyache or sprained ankle impose theirselves on my lawful regieme. I'm bending the rules, rather, rewriting the rules to be in my favor. All cells within the confines of my body are under my control. All your base are belong to us!

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US prepares to use toxic gases in Iraq in direct violation of worldwide treaty.

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Sunday, 2 March, 2003...........................................................

"A Mostly Gross Post"

< gross >

Oh yuck. The sickies have me. I felt fine yesterday and right now feel as if I've won the shopping spree at the Germ-O-Mart. My cart is overflowing and everyone is cheering me on to empty another aisle of ick into my overburdened buggy. That's just the word for it too.

I had a dream last night that my pee had turned blue, that bright irridescent blue of Jamaican skies and Tidy-Bowl surfing contests. Obviously I was a bit taken aback. I called my best friend and he told me to call a bookstore and see if they could look it up in some medical resource guide, which I did. On the other end of the line all I could hear were the sounds of Lesbian Shouting Poetry and the collective sighing of hundreds of post menopausal erogeousous zones being titilated and tweaked. No luck there. So I googled it and came up blank. Or blue. And woke up with the sickies.

< /gross >

There is good news and joy, however. We voted not to postpone the Haiti trip in April because of Bush's stupid war. It feels like it's the right thing to do, the brave thing to do, the only thing to do. I don't want the evil actions of a sociopathic warmonger to stop us from bring our love and our support to a people long ignored. No matter what, Mr. Resident, "we shall not be moved" by your incitement to fear, rather we've got "one more river to cross" for the sake of goodness in the world. So there.

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Meanwhile, get out your popcorn and enjoy the sequel:Patriot Act II, the Electric Boogaloo

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Further background on US "intelligence" intentions, a follow up to the previous post.

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Email reveals US plan to bug Security Council. Democracy in action! Bribes! Spying! Duct tape lobbyists! It's Ethics-a-go-go in the Bush Whitehouse!

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