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Howdy Cats and Kiddies,

How can I synopsize who I am / will be via this medium of buzzing electrons and behind the scenes binary code? I can't really, since I leave much of the "who" part up to the moment. But I suppose there are always details.


So, what do I do?  If you're asking about work, my primary vocation is providing therapeutic mentorship to at-risk youth.  I'm also on staff at the Jubilee! Community  (an interfaith spiritual community here in Asheville, NC).  I completed my Doctorate in Divinity in 2004, and I'm back in school now for an eventual Masters in either counseling or social work. I've been an ordained minister since '96 working in community ministry.


Which brings me to spirituality; it's strange to say that I'm drawn to all faiths, but I am. There's something about the great panoply of ideas, images and modalities of the experience of the divine, the endless variety of expression and devotion to something  immense and unknowable, that  is the flame to my moth wings. I want to know, I want to feel, I want to understand the human yearning to order the universe into varying degrees of sacredness. Personally, I'm a Panentheist, with a theurgical bent and strong personal attachments to early Christianity, Sufism, Zen, African and Earth-Based systems of knowledge.
 


In 2004 I published my second book, an essay and poetry collection called "Rainbow Over Crossroads." The first book, "Digging the Immaterial," a collection of poems and stories, is selling as well as can be expected without heavy promotion. I have another project for a fictional biography on the backburner for now. I'm not much into tooting my own horn, just playing my music. As you can see, creativity is not just a practice, it's what I live for; to grow within myself and to savor the talent and ideas of our strange band of humanity.
 


Just  to get it out of the way, I'm gay and single. Ta-da. But I'm not stereotypical (though I do own Edith Piaf albums) and I'm rarely flamboyant unless forced to by mitigating circumstances such as liberal  wine consumption or an unbearable lack of campiness. I'm mostly kidding.
 


Nature is my most trusted solace. I love the mountains, rivers  and bioregions of Western North Carolina and get out there whenever I can. Human conversation about God and the Universe is great but nothing compares to watching the meanderings of a crayfish or passing of clouds over the peaks.  The silence of those moments is such pure mysticism, to hear with the soul the miraculous pronouncements of the wind and the birds carried by it teaches me more than I can express with words, more than any collection of human wisdom. Because it's ineffable, it's powerful. Sunsets recharge my batteries and misty mornings are holy communion.
 


You may have guessed by now that I'm a bleeding heart liberal. Well, I am in some senses, but in general I'm weary of the bipolarisms in the American body politic. I'm part of the "all one" crowd, politically, environmentally, spiritually and philosophically. I'm a "common grounder," more interested in making progress than taking sides... though, as a human prone to vacillation and irony, I occasionally do.
 


  I'm a sentimental old fool, known for a few Quixotic jaunts into the Unknown  who prefers the path of the Fool rather than the path of exactitude and foreknowledge (which absolutely has it's place in the world). I'm a helpless romantic, chasing lightening bugs to the tunes of ol' Satchmo. I always cry watching certain films, and laugh when I especially feel the love.  I'm blessed with a great community and strong friendships; you know who you are and I wouldn't be here without ya (wink).  Of course, amongst these wonderful folk I must count my best friend of nearly 20 years, Joshua, and his wife, Robin.
 


But seriously, folks, I can't take it all so seriously. It's all energy, including you, me, all our hopes and dreams, our fears and quibbles. What better reason to live meaningfully than the apparent meaninglessness of it All? What better reason to love the world in your own weird way than for the great flowing of unspeakable love all around us?

As you can see, I'm prone to tangential thinking.

That's enough of me... what about you?



 

 

 

 

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Myers-Briggs ENFP, Enneagram 2w1 conscious, 1w2 overall, Sagittarius with Cancer rising and Libra moonsign, Year of the Rat, lucky number is 23, queer, vegetarian, mostly leftist and left-handed, Panentheist/Theurgist..

Check out my Morality! 83% liberal, 17% conservative

I'm a O90-C64-E64-A94-N71 Big Five!!

Timeline:

1972: Birth happens, Very confused.

1976: My mother helps me climb a tree. When in the voting booth on my father's shoulders, I reach out and flick the doohickey to re-elect Jimmy Carter. Father furious. Parents separate.

1977: First movie is 'Star Wars.' I won't sit down because I want to go to the screen and meet the people.

1980: I'm very interested in this whole 'boycott the Olympics thing.'

1982: Tenth birthday party. Rather upset that my friends are throwing my balloons in the fireplace to watch them explode.

1984: See the film 1984 with my mother. Decide that I'm a democrat and cry when Mondale loses.

1986: First major spiritual epiphany.

1987: Decide to become ultra-right republican for a while.

1988: Increase confusion as to sexual orientation. Use religious orthodoxy as a guilt mechanism. Receive a 1977 Chevy Chevette.

1989: Republican era ends while protesting an abortion clinic..Realize I didn't believe it all anyway. Take down framed photograph of Reagan in bedroom that night. Convert to Punk Rock as the way, the truth, the life.

1991: Spend summer living on my own with spiritual teacher and a hallway of bats. Rekindle childhood friendship with Joshua (major intermingling of fates).

1992: First cross-country trek to Wyoming on a Greyhound bus to seek spiritual enlightenment. Succeed, also acquire severe food poisoning.

1993: Party Year.

1994: Trek to Olympic Peninsula for more vision. Found it. Got a bit blurry back in Seattle.

1995: Dulled a bit by excessive excessiveness. Mystical reality is scratching at the door, waiting to be let in.

1996: Good friend dies from overdose. Second major spiritual epiphany. Trek with Joshua to Mt. Shasta, CA. Ordained. Decide to leave Delaware for Asheville, NC.

1997: Begin life anew in the mountains. When not working in a chicken shack.

1998: The Year of Sacred Geometry. Fired from chicken shack.

1999: Trek to Eastern Europe. Another epiphany, this time a humdinger.

2000: Massive transformation. Rediscover the whole nature of identity while coexisting with the in the Cosmos.

2001: Writing like a madman. Theater bug bites back. Does life get any better?

2002-2003: The whole renaissance man thing. A flurry of constant activity. Trek to Southwest with Joshua, then Haiti. Epiphanies a go-go. Published first book. Does life get any better?

2004: Someone stuffed the hell out of this this fortune cookie. Really fun stage roles. My body ages, but hell, does life get any better?

2005: Second book published, Peru trip, near death experience, living ad infinitum...

FUN Facts:

Radio Host of "Global Alchemy" on FRA 107.5FM May '01-Jan.'03. Pirate radio, that is.

Ordained as a minister of the Sanctuary of the Beloved, July '96.

Member of folk-punk band "Polysorbate 59" 1994-1996

Goofy Mayoral Candidate 1991, Newark, Delaware. 17% of Newarkers wanted Rule under an Iron Ham.

Delaware State Junior Journalist of the Year, 1988

As child, communicated with ghosts

Used to eat bugs as a toddler

Stage Credits:

Nov. 2005: Bishop in spoof "Pride at Southanger Park" by GK Chesterton

Nov. 2004: Co-Director, "Through the Eye of a Needle."

August 2004: Encore performance as Rev. BH Hooker in a relaunching of "Dearly Departed" by Botrell and Jones.

June-July 2004: Voiceover work for the Japanese animation series "Miami Guns" at Phoenix Post Sound/Blue Ridge Motion Picture, Asheville, NC

May 2004: Curio/Priest/2nd Officer and Ass't Stage Manager in Shakespeare's Twelfth Night at North Carolina Stage Company.

Apr. 2004: Played Self in the comedy The Complete Word of God (Abridged)

Mar. 2004: Reader's Theater at SART Playwright's Conference (Pound by Sean O'Leary).

Dec. 2003: Played lead Mickey/Lucius in the drama "Greetings." by Tom Dudzick

Sept. 2003: Light and Sound tech in "Asleep on the Wind/Graceland" by Ellen Byron.

July 2003: Writer and Director of children's play "How Long 'til Sunrise?" Script available royalty free to nonprofit theaters or to at-risk youth programs.

April 2003: Played Rev. "BH Hooker" in the comedy "Dearly Departed." by Botrell and Jones.

Jan. 2003: Played male lead "Mr. Smith" in "The Bald Soprano" by Eugene Ionesco

Sept. 2002: Co-wrote and played male lead "Otto" in the original "Fools at Play" by Burton, Fortuna, Joslin, Marshall and Morrow.

Apr. 2002: Played "Napthali/Mrs. Potiphar" in "Josheph and the Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat" by Andrew Lloyd Webber and Tim Rice.

Dec. 2002: Played "Pearl/Charlene" in "A Tuna Christmas" by Williams, Sears and Howard.

Sept. 2001: Played "Cliff" in the original "Book of Love" by Jubilee Players et al.

1991-1992: Two seasons of improv theater at Delaware Theater Company and improv development work with Danny Peake.